The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to commend

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have passed, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

The curse of his powers tormented his life
Obeying the crown was a sinister price
His soul was tortured by love and by pain
He surely would flee, but the oath made him stay

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have passed, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all they'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

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♥ So Much ♥

Its Amazing how so much can change in just a few days, is'nt it? You go from being happy at the beginning of the week and before you know it your in more peices then you count and all you want to do is curl up and wait until you turn into a fossil. Yes I am being alittle depressing >>;;. But do you blame me, honestly? Most of you know what been going on, so I wont say what it out loud here, Yah its summer, but this isnt how I wanted to start it, or spend it.

I believe, if memory serves, the memory goes, "Every cloud has a sliver lining". In this case, this dark cloud does have a sliver lining. But it is thin and fragile and I would like the rest of you to take that into consideration and not break it. Alot has changed for me in just a matter of a few days and the pressure of it all is close to unbearable. My sliver lining, though thin and fragile, makes it all bearable and even worth living.

♥ Thorpe Park ♥

Well, Thorpe Park was good. I am sure you all have seen a picture of me eating noodles on your FaceBooks, thanks to =King-Mushroom XD. I got hungery! And I wanted noodles and there was a noodle place and yah! Leave me alone! XDDD. But yah Zain kept taking silly pictures of me owo;;. Theres even of me in this shocked position when I got splashed by cold water on the Rapids ride. It was alot of water and it was cold and I had no idea it was about to wack me one! So WHATEVER!! SHUDUP! And I took like a million of Zain, I am not sure if you guys have seen them. Might have, I dont know O_o;;.

Anyway, me and Zain sort of wandered off by ourselves and went on a few riders with each other, without the rest of the class incase we screamed (like little girls wearing dresses, yes we are that gay! FUCKTACULAR!! XDDD ) or threw up on any of the rides, the class wouldnt know and we wouldnt be embarassed. Problem solved xDDD. We mainly stuck to the water rides, and NO! THAT WASNT BECAUSE WE WANTED TO LOOK SEXY! Though I am sexy so hey XDD *vain* . Nah, it was just so damn hot! Yes I am hot, we all know X3. But no, seriously, I mean I know its summer, but hello! WE DIDNT ASK FOR THE SUN TO COME AND SIT ON TOP OF THE EARTH DAMN IT! So yah, The waters rides were our best bet to stay cool and not fry to death. Plus the other rides have leather seats and metal railing. BAD!! Leather literally absorbs the heat, so you burn your bottom :/ and metal conducts heat so you partically burn your hand right off your wrist and start screaming :/. And that is also your science lesson for the day! Take notes! xDDD. And Yah we got soaked owo;;, like to the point where our t-shirts go see-through and stick to your skin. Don't start drooling anyone, if you do, mop it all up xDD.

Probably the only bad thing that happened, apart from a few texts I got about a certain person trying to steal my baby and no I still has my baby <33. But apart from that would be one my friends being abit homophobic. Yes this friend does know, get a grip the rest of you XD. But yah, he was running around taking pictures with everyone in our class and the teachers. And I hadnt really noticed till Zain pointed out the he hadnt taken a picture with me. I didnt care to much to be honest, I knew my friend was abit homophobic so I sort of half wanted to leave it up to him and half wanted my picture taken to. I FELT LEFT OUT!! SMITE ME!! ¬¬;;, Plus everyone knows I like my picture taken xDD *vain*. So after some nagging from Zain, I went asked him if he would mind taking a picture with me. And the reply that came out, flippen heck, I stayed quiet for the rest of the day partically. We were there until 6:45 almost and I had asked him around like 2-ish, so yah I stayed quiet from around 2. Only said a few words here and there. Even ended up walking away from Zain without realising it, till he turned around and realised I was gone and had to call me on my mobile. I just felt like being alone after that, which is impossible when your best friends trying to get you to win a Gain Banana flatable XDD

Oh and yes Zain decided to be a good best friend and embarass me infront all those boys. They were quite a few hot ones though o///o;;. We actually stalked a few boys XDDD, until they noticed, then we just flash the camera in there face and leg it >>;;. There was this one guy, just melted away into the ground and became a puddle O________________o;; Yah, were odd? No? XDDDD

♥ Death Is Only The Start Of The Journey ♥

This part of my jounrnal is for Ammy and Aden. These two wonderful people ended their lives a few days ago. And before you decided to curse their names and be all, "Oh what emo's ending their lives" or any stupid shit like that, Don't. You. Even. Dare. Think. It. Got it? Good. You don't know the reason why so don't assume shit that you don't know about and mock someones name. You wouldn't like it if someone did it to you and you were gone and dead, so keep it shut. No, I wont go into the reasons of why they did it as I am not sure it should be shared, but just know this, it wasnt because they were just two boys on the street and couldnt handel life and so therefore just jumped it, No, thats not the case. But as I said, I will not say why they did it as I am not the best person to explain it.

To be honest I didnt know them both all that well, Aden I dont think I knew at all. But I have talked to Ammy quite a few times. Wonderful person to talk to and a good friend and I am sure Aden was just as good of a person ^^. It was nice while it lasted and though I have said it to Ammy loads of times before, I'm going to say it here to, Thanking him for all the help and support he ever gave me. Always refueling that hope that I would always be close to letting go of. I still remeber the first time I talked to him, it was in the chatrooms on here, in dAmn. It was odd, because I had never talked to him before and for him to just come up to me randomly and want to help, was something new for me. And then continuously check on me after that all the time, whenever I managed to be online when he was, it was kind and sweet <3. Normally I am the one that does that, but yah were not talking about me. I know Ammy wont know that I have said thank you again for the millionth time like I do, but I hope the millions of other times I have said it to him, will be good enough in some way <33333.

And this is also for =MidnightEchinacea and *Calmo-Kerul as they both knew them better then I ever did are finding the it hard to cope right now, the blow being hard on them. So I would like everyone to just go easy on them and help them through this right now. Its the best any of us can do right now. And I am sure it would would be mean alot to them two that we all chipped in alittle for them. I am sure it's not to much to ask.

We will miss Ammy and Aden both very much Love you both

♥ Raven Stamp ♥

This ish for =NeoWolf06 owo;;. He made me a Raven Stamp!!! . Lookies! ---> [link] . Ish hot, no?! xDDD. Raven is just soooooooooooo cool owo;. When will I grow up and get over her? NEVER!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! o____________O;;. I think my username clearly states that xDD. RAVEN FAN FOREVERS!!! <333333.

Anyways, thanks hun for the stamp! Love it all the way! And now the stamp is all over my journal! >>;; hehe? XDDDD Yes I like it that much X33

♥ Personal Messages ♥

=King-Mushroom - Not sure where you have died off too :/ Not unless you have left on that school trip to Umrah or however you spell it. Not sure when the date is . Hope you have a good time! Buy me a prezzy!! >>;; xDDD. Love you x 999999999

~Ninuko - Started writing your poem little one ^^ Should be finished soon. Have fun at your friends house son, relax and take a break . Miss you loads. Love you x 9999999999

=MidnightEchinacea - Thank you for the drawing of me and Ninuko! Sorry you had to stay up all night doing it . And I hope your feeling alittle better, though I know it still probably hurts hun . Love you x 999999999

*Calmo-Kerul - Nu!! Leaving is bad! Your not even taking me with you owo;; XDDD You cant leave me behind!! ¬¬;;. I know we havent talked about it yet, but I hope your feeling ok bro. Love you x 999999999

=darkphoenix15 - *he shifted his eyes around and then pushed her into the bushes* >>;; Oops? My bad? XDDD. Hope your feeling ok.. Love you x 999999999

=NeoWolf06 - Nice to talk to you again hun ^^. Been long time no see! xDD. Thank you for the stamp, I love it <33. Love you x 999999999

=Simonarrow359 - Thank you for all the textings through the last 2-3 weeks. Brightening up my day and everything, espicially over the last few days, would have fallen apart without your help ^^. And hope you feel better soon too! ><;;. Love you x 999999999

~Flamesofhell2 - Not even sure what to say to you right now..so yah. Love you x 999999999

=Aidan19 - Hope your ok with your asthma and everything. Though I seriously think you should go check yourself with the doctors. Might be just the weather but still, better to be safe then sorry.. Love you x 999999999

And now time for bed
Night all you sexy people
Love you both, Ammy and Aden. You will both be forver remebered and in our hearts

Video of the Week - [link] (The tunes funny xD)
Song of the Week - [link] (Reminds me of Myself <333)
Picture of the Week - [link] XDDDD Found it on google )
Poem of the Week - [link] (Mhmm.. )

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